Heartbreak, soul detachment, stuck in a routine of “love”, do the fundamentals of love still exist and the importance of hitting rock bottom face first.
The sharing of the worst time of my life, matters to consider when leaving the person you love, why self love saved my life and how I changed my understanding and outlook to live a life of abundance.
I have read a few articles and stories on true love, but can’t say I have come across one that involves the complete shattering of hearts in the hope of giving love a chance someday in the future.
I know heartbreak, but nothing comes close to the pain of choosing to leave the woman you are still madly in love with and always will love, because love itself was no longer enough. The harsh reality of the universe is that everything is temporary, and the deepest and truest love doesn’t always mean you are happy. Long story short, life happened and my ex and I drifted to the point that we had completely detached from our souls and own identity.
Loneliness is its most destructive when felt in the presence of the one person whose attention and love you crave. No words, no words can ever describe the gut wrenching pain that left me paralysed and in tears from this heartbreak, but it was the best decision I have ever made. I am so grateful as it led to an incredible journey of finding and understanding myself, healing old emotional traumas, forming an appreciation for everyday beauty and finally coming to understand that peace and love is found within. They say it takes a complete falling apart and questioning of all that we know to find ourselves, this is absolutely true.
This is probably one of the most difficult decisions of one’s life, where you question your happiness and alignment to your soul vs the fear and selfishness of staying and feeling unfulfilled and lost.
The below questions helped a lot when it came to guiding me on a way forward, but this will differ from couple to couple depending on your circumstances. I have always valued the basics of love over anything material or emotionless and the below is in line with that:
I guess I have to see the beauty in this love story as I do believe her heart now understands what true love feels like, albeit for a future lover. However, I didn’t think she would be “saved” through letting her go and the most painful goodbye imaginable. 6 Months ago I was on my knees begging for a sign from the universe to show me that there was more to life, that love exists and we all have a purpose. Today marks the final stage of my healing process since the breakup, the packing away and folding of all photos and memories in a safe place out of sight.
Now, I am sure you must be wondering how on earth this was the best decision I have ever made. This decision led to tons of hard questions and self reflection, which made me realise:
In the last 6 I have completely turned my life around, my perspective on life and love has changed and I have actively regained control of my destiny and the life I want to live. This is a daily commitment, with growth and self care / self love being the main factors. It’s important to note that everyone has their own path that is completely different and unique to you only, so walk your path with your head held high and own it!
So, if you are going through heartbreak and you feel like you don’t have the strength to get back up, if you feel like crying and breaking down for no reason, if you are wondering what the point of life is and why it seems like you are destined to never find the happiness and love you so deeply crave and want to give back to the world – this next bit might be just what you need to find the strength and faith to get back up!
You are worthy of happiness, you are worthy of love and peace of mind! I am begging you to get up; you owe it to yourself to keep fighting for your life as you have done time and time again. I am begging you to keep fighting for love and from this very moment onward you commit your love and care to the person who needs it most, you! 6 months later and I am still standing, I am stronger and wiser and you will be too!
Have faith in yourself and trust that the universe and guardian angels are always watching over you.
Today is day 1 of the most important relationship you will ever have, the relationship with yourself. Time heals all wounds and it’s not always going to be easy sailing, but no one said happiness and unconditional love was ever going to be easy. Today you take back control of your life; today you start your journey on the pathway to abundance. Today you remember who you are and that you are worthy, worthy of your own love and care.